Born Plain White Trash but Fancy is My Name ♥

I am fat. Can’t wait to lose weight.

Still in Renfrew. Here for 6 weeks so far. Had my Sweet 16th birthday here on Sunday. So fat. I can’t wait to lose it all.. again.

I want to fucking die.

This isn’t fair.

My parents don’t want me to go.

But it’s not in their control anymore.

That stupid fucking bitch. My life changed the moment she fucking entered my life. Immediately she saw the opportunity to get excitement, and Pursued to have it. She abused her high standards as a doctor. She doesn’t fucking know me, or my family. My mother and father are innocent. Why the fuck did she do this. Why the fuck can she do this.

Been crying all day and night. Packed for renfrew for Monday. Even though my EKG and blood work is normal, my pediatrician, who only knew me for 20 seconds, is putting me there. She is doing every damn thing in her power to make sure I go. She is out to get me. She called DYFS, accusing my dad of medically neglecting me and my mom for not feeding me. My phyciatrist knows this is bullshit, and says I don’t fucking need this. Fuck. Fuck. I hate my life. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE!!!!

so.. my pediatrician called DYFS for not sending me to Renfrew ASAP.. so my parents could lose custody of us. Basically I was told that by the end of this week I would have to go to Renfrew.. missing the JDD, school, life, freedom… I was crying so much and wondering how on earth I could tell the best boyfriend ever that I can’t go to the dance and I’ll be away for basically the rest of the school year.

Even though I’m now 79 pounds, I have a healthy EKG and lab report. I talked to my phyc and promised that I’ll do better, and since I am not in a life or death situatio, it should be okay to wait.